I came, I saw, I wandered......



My life is moving too fast...I'm too busy attending classes, finishing assignments, remain perennially nerved up. The best part is that I can't convince myself that I'm learning anything. About Journalism at least (coz that's what the subject for my majors is).

Life is hectic. I wake up, make assignments early morning, get ready while my mom keeps shouting in the background how my life is so disorganized.....how I've made a wreck of my health....How I'm always in a bad mood....how guys would reject me for marriage proposals.....(god, like I really need to know that first thing in the morning! ). Mothers, I tell you.

I usually grab my stuff and rush out of the home, mentally preparing myself for the two hour long delhi-darshan trip to my college. Now, my college is near Chandni Chowk in Old Delhi (very far from my home). I take a bus, then change the metro twice and finally take a rickshaw in order to reach my college.
I would have never really discovered this place had it not been for the location of my college. My emotions usually go for a flip whenever I reach Chandni Chowk metro station. I automatically transform from a Spoilt-urban girl to a more thoughtful, compassionate person.

The exit of the metro station is marked by same beggars who greet me everyday, sitting in their exact place, calling out the same blessings. These are the deformed, small children, their mother is selling some random stuff nearby, their younger siblings lying in the shade of trees, busy playing with rags. My heart goes out to them. I'm not much of a charitable person by the way. But I surprised myself the other day when I bought some corn (bhutta) for an old beggar lady who was looking at them with longing eyes. She didn't even realize that I was giving it to her for free, she just took it and went away limping, without caring to throw a second glance. I paid the hawker. "This girl is nuts", he must have thought. He gave a slightly mischievous smile and took the money. Now, it's a habit with me. I buy stuff for these people, when I'm forced to, by my instincts.

I move out of the metro station, take a rickshaw and watch people still sleeping on the pavements, outside Sheeshganj gurudwara. Some of them look doped, maybe they are. Some of them are simply sleeping there for lack of other options. Do they even realize that day has dawned, that traffic is rushing past them, that foreign tourists who are out here to "explore the real Delhi" are clicking them? I guess not. These are the anonymous stars of Real India. Perfect stuff for some documentary on Discovery channel, but someone whom you would not like near you in any other circumstances.

The rickshaw takes a turn, and the majestic Red Fort and Jama Masjid come in view. Interestingly, this bare stretch of one kilometer has a famous gurudwara, Jama Masjid, the beautiful Jain temple and a church. And they say, secularism is a thing of the past.

I reach college and forget all about it. And it happens everyday. I somehow find it strange. I give stuff to beggars, act compassionate because somehow I still believe I'm a very cruel, uncompassionate person who does not visit temples, does not even pray, swears like a sailor and has almost no real friends around. And helping them apart from giving me immense happiness and satisfaction, also gives me some peace of mind. It helps me to reinstate faith in me, it helps me to believe that I'm not a very bad person. Only a bit maybe.

20 comments:

I'll try 2 be truthful | September 9, 2009 at 10:27 PM

welcome to the mosaic called life :)

Abhinav | September 9, 2009 at 10:32 PM

I could tell it by instinct that the second pic is of Delhi!

well, this is the story of whole country.. and not many people care abt others like u do!

The Crystal Heart | September 10, 2009 at 4:29 PM

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Kya Kehta Hain "Zindagi Inteha Leti Hain".

We r All Know Very Well That Your Respected Parents Love N Care You Like Lil Priness...In A Hours They Would Purchased You A New Luxury Car With A Driver For Your Collage...But They Wants You See The World With Your Own Eyes....Learn Good Or Bad...Judging The Abilty Of Right or Wrong Person.You Can Learn With Your Mistakes...You Would not Blame & Depend On Destiny.You Would Make A Stronger Girl Who Fights For Own Rights & Justice In This Cruel World.They Want U Will Prove Your Abilty Skills & Women Power.You Would Enjoy Each & Every Movement Of Life ..They r Trusting On You With Blind Eyes..They Want People Unhey Successful Girl Prianca Arora Ke Parents ka Naam Se Jaane Future Maine N Your Parents Want Whole World Even God, Goddess Will Proud On You Like Them....I Daam Sure You Will Fullfill Their Dreams Soon..

Hey So Wat Your Not Worship God..But U Respect & Care Ur Family More Than God...You Are also Worshipping Ur Parents....

You Helped Poor People With No Profit..That The Sign Of Kind Hearted Person....

Lakin Kya Kehta Hai "Jitna Bhi Karlo Saala Kaam Padh He Jaate Hain"


Omg Now I dnot Say God Bless You Because You donot Pray God N Donot Go Temple In Your Life..How God Know That Prianca Arora Naam Ki Angel Bhi Hain Es Earth Par Hain...How God Will Bless You....lolz


P.S....Yaar Are You Seriously Cruel ???

Wow I Am Talking With Cruel, Evil, Stonehearted, Arrogant, Uncompassonate Girl First Time In My Life...Hahahaha. Take Care Yourself Cya..

Shruti | September 11, 2009 at 8:26 AM

Suddenly i went back to my DU days, when i had to go thru a similar daily grind on my way to college: the grand Delhi metro had just been launched and we used to be all giggly n excited on that 1.5 hr trip. Ah those days when it used to be squeaky clean with few passengers.. and the condition now- it looks like any other railway station in India, the only difference being its air conditioned.
Well compassion is something which is an individualistic trait and something which comes from the heart, and it's a nice feeling to know that u r considerate enough to feel for the beggars n help them. n that too during those hrs of the morning rush.
Coz most of the times people just whisk past them without even bothering to look, forget about paying them a penny and that even includes me .

Written in a simple yet effective way.

Cheers!

peter | September 11, 2009 at 2:09 PM

a lot f times when i come across such situations, I feel helpless and lucky at the same time.
U sound like a grown up and sensible girl ..!
this post is so simple and nice:)

VagaBond | September 12, 2009 at 11:11 AM

U Travel everyday itna!!!whao!
I know it feels very sad when u come across poorer section of soceity but u can't really do much to help them....however u did ur bit and it is praise worthy!!:)

BTW long tym hw have u been! ;)

Prianca | September 14, 2009 at 1:29 PM

@ i'll try to be truthful
yup. true indeed.

@ abhinav
arrey, the first pic is of delhi too, metro main click ki thi..nd yup, the second pic is chandni chowk. :p
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Prianca | September 14, 2009 at 1:31 PM

@ the crystal heart
Nowhere in my blgo have i mentioned my complete name.
I have just one question for you....how did u come to know my name? nd y do u make it a point to mention it everytime in each of ur comment?
if u know me personally, there is no harm in letting me know. u better reply

Prianca | September 14, 2009 at 1:32 PM

@ shruti
thank u for all d appreciation shruti :)

Prianca | September 14, 2009 at 1:32 PM

@ peter
ahemm, a sensible comment coming from a very sensible person. I'm happy. :))
thanku

Charnita | September 14, 2009 at 3:51 PM

Went through all your recent posts this morning..after such a long time... and as always it was a pleasure to read up.

I know I have said this thousand times before, but here it comes again "you write so well, fluid and spontaneous."

love,

The Crystal Heart | September 14, 2009 at 5:56 PM

Hey Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry Again Sorry.....We donot know Each Other..We Are Talking Through Blogs Only...Actually I m Surfing Internet From Mobile And One day I had Reset My Phone & All bookmark Was Deleted n I Didnot Remember Ur blog Url..So I Wrote ur Name & Life love Fate In Google Search Thn I Saw Ur Blog Url And Saw 1 Facebook With your Name..And I Visted Only First n Last time.In wch i Checked Ur Pic & Saw Ur Full Name..Actually We both Same Caste thats y i rememeber ur full Name..I have Sharp Memory lol Madam Completly My Mistakes....This Is Public Forum I must Thinking Before Writting Anything...Sorry I willnot do dis things again in future Madam....Hope You Understand Me.....Extremely Sorry.....Thanx For Everything and Asked me Frankly..If u dnot liked Any my Silly Comments You Must Deleted It Any Time..Hope All Misunderstanding Clear Now....God Bless You..Take Care Bye...



P.S..You Still Didnot Give Valuable And Precious Comment On My Silly Comments Genius Angel lolz....

swati | September 15, 2009 at 1:50 PM

simple yet elegant :)
we all are bad n we all are good hun!!
its jus the surroundings which keeps on altering our mood..
n you have a soft n a kind heart too :)
Cheer up!!
HUGS!

Prianca | September 16, 2009 at 10:31 AM

@ vagabond
thanku ji
m good aman, where hv u been? nd where is ur new post?
m waitin

Prianca | September 16, 2009 at 10:34 AM

@ charnita
i can only say m flattered...especially when the comment is coming from one of d few ppl i secretly admire nd look upto.
m touched.

@ swati
thanku for all d uplifting words dear. :)))

VagaBond | September 16, 2009 at 11:09 AM

wah wah aman ?!!:0 :0
Anant hun mein ...naam to errr nahi suna hogo...chal koi naa!! :P

Prianca | September 16, 2009 at 1:21 PM

@ vagabond
oops!.....sorry anant.

The Crystal Heart | September 16, 2009 at 1:55 PM

Hey Genius Angel...If You Donot Want I Read or Comment On Your Popular, Truthful, Famous blog Wat Say Real Mirror lol..Then i Will stop Writting Any Comments On Ur Blogs.,Its Ok Angel.....After All I still respect u...Take Care God Bless You..Cya

Prianca | September 17, 2009 at 9:57 AM

@ crystal heart
lol. u r most welcome to read my blog. :)

The Crystal Heart | September 17, 2009 at 12:22 PM

Thank You So Much Genius Angel....Really So Sweet Of You....Waise Bhi I Am Already Habitual For Reading Your Blog..lolz...We All Know Reading Is A Good Habit lolz....