So, yesterday was my Farewell party. I'm finally going to be a graduate. yayy. The party was nice, though it could have been hosted in a much better manner. Nevermind.
The thing is that I'm finally going to be a graduate and rather than growing nostalgic or very sentimental about it, I'm partly looking forward to get out of the college. Not becuase my college sucks (or even if it does, I couldnt care less).
Its the college environment I want to get out of. Frankly speaking, I'm not much of a social person. So I never made any really nice friends in these three years. I guess I was a bit too busy trying to balance work, studies, my LDR wid bf and other important matters. No grudges though. ..*wink*
So, post the official farewell party, all the to-be-graduating seniors (me included) and some of our juniors played a game called Confessions -2. Now, every one of us was supposed to tell what they ACTUALLY felt about their other graduating friends and trust me, it was scandalously phun!!!.
The best part is I got to learn a lot about myself, from what others had to say about me. Now, in a lot of my previous posts I'd already mentioned that I was allergic to bitching and bitches. However, it was nice to know what some of my classmates (who fall in this category perfectly) had some not so nice things to say about me. It was a nice change you know. I was bored of listening how genuine/frank I am or how wonderful my hair, figure, handwriting and god know wat all is.
I guess I could already figure out some of those things during my college life. But the rest of them totally surprised me. And the best and strangest part is I did not feel offended at all. Because these people had nasty things to say only about those students who have done pretty well for themselves academically, regarding their careers or were pretty looking or smarter than these self assumed critics. :p
Moreover, though I was trying to accept all nice and some not so nice things about me. I realised how I'd changed during these three years. I'm definitely not going to miss these critics for sure, though I'm secretly happy that they are not or can never be at the position where I and some other students who were targets of their bitchy wrath are. ....**evil grin**
Serves them right, i guess
However when my turn came to confess it all, I only addressed such nasty critics in an extremely diplomatic way and told them, "I have nothing against you darling. You say what you feel. You feel what your (narrow) mind and (shallow) heart allows you to. You are essentially human. Stay that way"
I wish them luck for their future bitching endaevours though. Such people definitely add a lot of masala to the class man.
I'm happy I do not react publicly anymore. I'm happy I did not try to defend myself or avenge them by trying to wash their dirty linen in public coz that would have solved their purpose...it would have given them a chance to upset me again. I'm happy I'm more in control of my life and decide whom I need to give zero, little or loads of importance to. Because I know people who matter to me are going to stay in my life, no matter what. Rest can go and take a hike. ...*wink wink*
I formed some great memories there which will always stay with me. I learned a lot about life, myself and the way world works. I'm happy I was able to form my morals,values and discover some of them in me while my undergraduation. So, petty things like jealous classmates do not figure out in my agenda anymore.
I forgive them all. I feel like god. :p :p :p
In Tanieya Khanuja
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