An year older, A lil more wiser.

So, it was my 21st birthday last week. (Yup, I don't think that I'm already old enough to be lying about my age, so there!) It was definitely not one of my best birthdays ever to say the least.
However, I'm here on my personal space, not to discuss how good or bad my day went. Over the years, I have realized that age is not just a number. Your birthday might pass in a matter of few hours, but it leaves a permanent mark behind, where the realization dawns that okay, you are a lil more older and hopefully, wiser.

Your birthday is just another day which comes in a year. It might be special for you, but for the rest of the world your special day is just like any other day. They get up,. go to work, keep sleeping, get drunk, get laid., fight with their boss, laze each his own.

It might sound strange but It's like a pattern. Every year, around two to three weeks before my birthday, I suddenly realize that something has changed. Changed about me. It's kind of funny, you know. It's this deja vu kinda feeling where while getting dressed in front of my mirror, I suddenly have this realization...."wow, pink, you have changed" .The awareness of how my perspective on things has changed. I wouldn't do things now which I would gladly do two years ago. And the next feeling is "Arre, didn't I felt the same thing last year as well"?

I admit I have changed a lot with time. It is in moments like these, when you are only with yourself, that thoughts filled with inexplicable wisdom hit you for a split second and leave you feeling a lil more wiser. So, what did I learn from myself this year?

  • I realized that my mad rush for a dream career, top scores isn't what matters most.
  • Contrary to what I believed, shopping does not make me happy. Maybe for a few hours, but then it's not worth spending pots of money on things I'll hardly use, all for momentary happiness.
  • I now prefer watching funny videos on Youtube, talk to people who are good or simply go for a walk when I want to feel happy.
  • On my last birthday, almost all of mine office and college friends, called me at midnight, to wish me. This year, I doubt if they even remembered it since I'm no longer in the office or same college. No birthday calls and very few text messages indicated what I'd missed out on. I'd missed out on investing in true friends, people who stay with you even when you change your workplace.
  • I always thought I disliked boys and can never fall in love with any other man than my bf. I'm forced to reconsider my thoughts now.
  • Do not expect. The less you expect, the more happy you will be with what you get.
  • I'm a lil more interested in boys now which was perceived as an "improvement in me" by my BFF.
  • I want to spend a little more time meeting people who are mature, intelligent and can think. I've had my fair share of fellas who are too busy acting immature, updating their playlists or scoring over girls over internet chats, girls shopping aimlessly and ooh'oohing over their new fuck-me heels every time somebody talks to them.
  • I wonder why and how do girls, my age, manage to shout to prove their point. I almost feel like telling them, " there is nothing sexy about shouting. So, please shut the F up". Raising your volume cannot compensate for your lack of logic or common sense.
  • Also, I want to be surrounded by people who do not scream "Oh fuck" or " ^%$^&%^ in Hindi everytime their pen drops down. Seriously, save your curses for something more worthwhile.
  • I love people who are funny, unassuming and who do not get tooooo serious about life without losing their focus. I wonder where are all of them?
  • Your friends aren’t perfect either. Being the first to forgive and forget can go a long way.
  • Holding a grudge just isn’t worth it.
  • Don’t take everything too seriously, you’re too young for that.
  • Nobody can love you like your parents can. But it's still fun to search for that special someone.
Too much of self-introspection for now. Morale of the story is that I need to loosen up and be a bit more easy going this year. And yes, not to take things or people too seriously who do not matter.

P.S.....m breaking my rule...not including a picture this time....coz m not in the mood to put one. period.

I care not so much what I am to others as what I am to myself. I will be rich by myself, and not by borrowing. ~Michel de Montaigne


Umesh Agarwal | November 11, 2009 at 4:10 PM

First of all Belated Happy Birthday!...well even I've had a few of ur realizations...but then again its not that easy to change yourself overnight...its difficult to not to take people seriously when ur used to I wish u luck on ur "resolution" ...keep writing :)

Anonymous | November 11, 2009 at 8:30 PM

i think saying the deep thought-of resolutions somewhere empties you from the will to get ur @$$ with them . and improvement is mostly a falsy. and so is winning. not from a pessimistic but frame of reference point of view.again jus a personal opinion
belted happy b'day ( hope u njoid it

PinkLovesParis | November 11, 2009 at 9:54 PM

Investing in friends - its some how something i havent done either and i do regret it...i love company, and imf riends with everyone but i somehow dont make that extra effort to sustain's strange.

I feel like you on birthdays too.

Happy birthday :)

Abhinav | November 11, 2009 at 10:05 PM

happy birthday!!!!!!!

arey u r 21 only?

hmm birthdays are strange days!!!

I'll try 2 be truthful | November 11, 2009 at 10:24 PM

hey pink :) happy birthday .

that was quite a realistic take on birthdays and not quite different from what i feel .its as if a new realization dawns.

hmm and that feeling when u know that last year so many people called up but this year close to none. that made me sad , but then i got over and remembered that it was the few who mattered made the day :)

happy birthday gal , and keep life going:)

The Crystal Heart | November 11, 2009 at 11:00 PM

Belated Happy Birthday Genius Angel and
dont forget Angel someone somewhere is wishing for ur happiness on
every Falling star.

Angel Ur Birthday is the perfect day to say that I respect & care u
so much because aleast you will remember me and someone will do hold a
surprise party 4 u..

I bet ur Family will be the one who would care to
make ur birthday special for u every year.
I really wish 2 god always love u as her lil daughter & make ur life
more beautiful thn heaven god always give u biggest smile on ur
face...i wish u complete all ur dreams....Happy Birthday Again Best Of

Genius Angel Now ur behaving Like A Sweet 16 yr girl...Year by year Your Looking More Young.....Hehehehe God Bless You...Cya

pj | November 12, 2009 at 12:28 PM

Firstly belated happy birthday!:)

When I read this post I could relate to it in many ways.
Its good to know that you have realized all these things about life.

Abt the friends thing, its so true!
expectations - true again! expectations are more often than not met with disappointments.So its better not to expect frm ppl and accept that not everyone is the way you are or have the same kind of thinking.

"Your friends aren’t perfect either. Being the first to forgive and forget can go a long way.
Holding a grudge just isn’t worth it."

keep up this attitude and you'll go a long way girl!

Prianca | November 13, 2009 at 11:04 AM

@ umesh
thank you so much.
nd yes, i'll keep writing. don't have much of an option there. ;)

@ anonymous
heavy comment. my mind took some time to process that. thanks!

i know. that's y i can connect with you. thank you dear :)

Prianca | November 13, 2009 at 11:06 AM

@ abhinav
haanji, i'm 21 only. thought i wish i was younger.

@ i'll try to be truthful

@ the crystal heart
thank you so much. and how can u say i'm looking younger? you haven't seen me? have you?

Prianca | November 13, 2009 at 11:08 AM

@ pj
nice to see your comment after so long.
feels nice that you guys could relate to it. that means m not the only one who feels this way. :)))

peter | November 13, 2009 at 11:52 AM

Ohh i learned like half of them too :D
happy belated b'day :D

Anonymous | November 15, 2009 at 1:56 PM

i decide to take dat as a compli ..
but yeah u got a lota comments..hmm .. eva better

The Crystal Heart | November 17, 2009 at 3:05 AM

Hiiii Genius Angel...I Hve Seen You Only In Your Blog And Facebook Picture...Your Always Younger Whole Life.That My Promised..Because I m elder With you lol hehehehe....Cya