How many clones do you have of yourself?

An optimist stays up until midnight to see the New Year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves. I can safely say I was not the pessimist this year.

Gotta admit, The year which just went by was one of the most eventful and learning periods of my life. I traveled a lot (and I loved it). I went to Goa, Mumbai, almost to Chennai, Bangalore, Shimla, Chandigarh, Bhopal and obviously roamed around in Delhi like a wanderer left loose.
Considering that I love travelling, this was one of the best periods of life. The best part is that when 2009 arrived, I had no clue that I'm going to travel so much. I didn't had the faintest idea that this year is akin to sitting in a class which imparted me the best learning experience in a subject called "Life".

If only you had known me when I was still out of school, fresh into my graduation. I was so sure about everything, about how anything I did was going to come out perfect and absolutely nothing could go wrong. The truth is that most of the things I did, never really turned out the way I wanted them to be. But the grass is always greener on the other side, right?

This year, I learned a lot. I changed a lot. I look back at the time when I would desperately try to fit among a group of nasty girls in grad college, only to be made fun of. I look back at the time when not reaching home by 6pm in the evening would scare the shit out of me. When having a good time with true friends was never experienced in my life. When even after all the slogging, my grades remained average and S never came into my life.
And then came 2009.

  • I traveled extensively. Realized I love visiting new places. It opened up my mind and heart to new people and places.
  • I learned to say "no".
  • I finally got over my inferiority complex. S made me realize what I am and why I should start giving respect to myself.
  • I realized I stay happier when I'm away from humans - the most complex lot. I'm happy when I shut out people with negative vibes, even if it means being rude.
  • I learned the trick to deal with people. I genuinely care for them and listen to them if I like them. No questions asked. And they become my friends. Simple.
  • Started investing more in relationships than my wardrobe. It paid off.
  • I had my first night out (and many more) with friends, finally learnt to let my hair down for a while, partied like crazy, had my share of embarrassing moments when sloshed, took major risks. I do not regret any of these. I'm glad I finally lived my age and did all of it.
  • I just hope that I remain the same/improve in the coming year and keep following the mantra of work hard/party harder. **wink wink**
It's like I have too many clones of myself now. And every time I look back, I can see all of them smiling at me for finally I'm happy with myself.

A clone of mine which was in high school - overweight, greasy hair, pimples, yearning for S and struggling with accounts and maths.

A clone of mine which was in college - slightly improved, motivated, hard working, happy-go-lucky, still struggling with skin and heart issues

A clone of mine which was in office - drowned in inferiority complex, fed up of bitching, worrying over her weight issues, crying badly for S.

A person that I'm today - Happily lost in herself, confident, carefree and working hard (only when required).

I know there are many more changes to come in my life in every two-three years and many more clones to follow. I'm just hoping they are better versions than the current one. One might wonder why the hell am I remembering my past right now? Everybody goes through these changes, ain't it?

Actually, I'm not remembering. I'm thanking my stars that I went through all those phases. I'm thanking my past versions (geez, I almost sound like a video game with too many versions :p). My clones remind me of what I don't want to be like anymore. This is what they whisper to me:

Promise me you'll never forget me because if I thought you would, I'd never leave. ~A.A. Milne


sush | January 3, 2010 at 6:37 PM

Hii Happy Newyear.
Always love your posts.Have a great year ahead.

Rachit... | January 3, 2010 at 9:13 PM

u remind me a lot of me... its weird how one can look back at her/himself and realise that its not what i am today but still it is a very important part of what i call ME. and that i am not supposed to ignore but accept it as a part of life...
you have this amazing ability to bring down your thoughts on paper or screen... it shows how mature you actually are... only if you could be so in your regular life too... 'i wish'...

Anonymous | January 4, 2010 at 5:54 PM

this is a good post ...
absolutely ...mouth shut ...clone concept awesome

The Crystal Heart | January 5, 2010 at 12:39 AM

Genius Angel I Really Happy Because You Are Happy,,.Angel When We Met On Your Famous Blog..Juss Think After Meet Me..You Only Feel Success & Enjoyment In Your Life..You Trust urself.Your Self Confidence Increased.You Looking Gorgeous..Your Full of Positive Energy..When You Had In School Collage Office Lots Of Problems..Because We Hadnot Meet..May Be Its Only Co-Incident...Or I m Lucky For you..God Knows.That Really Not Important at all...Waise Your Looking Gorgeous In Your Blog Profile Pic..Stay Khush..God Bless You..I always Wishing for Ur Happiness...


Another year has come and gone
So many lessons were there to learn
And some of them again I missed,
And here another year comes a new.

I cry out for some guiding hand
To lead me out of the hindering pit,
Yet I know I must stretch my hand
Out of the pit if I need some help

Exhausted and crushed I may be now
Defeated and beaten down to earth
But only I can pick me up
To start again to make new strides

And in this fleeting days of illusion
I must stand for myself to live
And though I may have failed before
I will try some more, again and again,

To learn to overcome the lower self
And passions of the mind I bear
Of anger, lust and vanity,
Of attachment and even greed,

With those true virtues of the mind
Of patience, and discrimination
Of humility, and detachment too,
And of the contentment of things

Though the path be strewn with thorns
And may be slippery at best at times
My Inner Guidance I still will trust
As I cry me a new beginning,

The Light of God will shine my way
The Sound of God will lead my path
Through the valley and shadow ways
I shall emerge again a better I.

Happy New Year Genius Angel

Aupsy-The cOOlest One!! | January 6, 2010 at 12:08 AM

hey cool blog... honest a few, will read more... keep writing :)

PJ | January 6, 2010 at 9:07 PM

can totally relate to this post!

swati | January 7, 2010 at 5:02 PM

Good Luck lady!! :) have a nice year

sAu | January 9, 2010 at 7:49 PM

looking in past, being in present and thinking of future will definitely not gonna sync to each other. What most important is to be more content with urself.

btw, happy new year n best of wishes for twenty10. :))

Best part to read,
" Started investing more in relationships than my wardrobe. It paid off. "

peter | January 9, 2010 at 9:47 PM

Happy new year first f all :)

You know I have to say only one thing,i.e, you learn from life, in fact you only learn from life.

Maths, science, arts, commerce are just a tiny part of what life has to offer u.
may you learn 2010 times more this year :)

Prianca | January 13, 2010 at 11:15 AM

@ sush
thankyou. The rare occurrence of your comments makes me look forward to them all the more..m glad you like the gibberish that i scribble.

@ rachit
i know.."you wish"...thank you for finally posting a comment here....and no, don't expect to act like my genuine mature self in front of you guys anytime soon...m happy being the "billi" of the group. ;)

Prianca | January 13, 2010 at 11:17 AM

@ anonymous
thank you. the clone concept came on the spur of moment..

@ the crystal heart
haha, well if that's what you'd like to believe...i won't break your sweet dream..maybe yes, i got lucky after you started reading my posts...dream on you crazy diamond ;)

Prianca | January 13, 2010 at 11:19 AM

@ aupsy
thanks for reading.

@ PJ
i know...a lot of ppl could. :)

@ Swati
thanku. hope you have a good year too.

@ SAu
thanks for visiting. :)

@ peter
thanku buddy....i was actually waiting for your comment, coz u always have something new and interesting to contribute. happy new year to you too.

Anonymous | January 15, 2010 at 12:59 AM

hii pink!!
tis was te best post i hv ever cme across.every sentence has some meaning ad only tat person cn knw tis who really knows u.tis post is really readin tis i cn imagine te various clones at each stage of ur life. bye
mr S.

The Crystal Heart | January 16, 2010 at 1:35 AM

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