When you get everything that you want....


If you don't get everything you want, think of the things you don't get that you don't want. ~Oscar Wilde

I have always believed in the above mentioned saying whenever I'm unable to get something I really wanted. But life is funny. It throws unexpected questions at you. Questions, whose answers cannot be sought in the intellectual, age old quotations. These are the questions which make you think "Bhagwaan, Oscar Wilde iss situation pe quote karna kyun bhool gaya??" (Oh god, how did this situation escaped unquoted in Oscar Wilde's times?) :p

I had always been an above average student all my life.
Above average? Yes.
Smart? Yes
Frigging intelligent? NO.

There were times when I used to see students appearing in newspapers, topping CBSE, cracking IIT, IIM's and what not. I was happy being an ordinary girl who never scored too high or did exceptionally well to feature in such newspaper ads. I was contended simply by reading these articles and marvelling at their intellect. (yeah, go ahead, call me complacent, like i care)

College ended. Most of the students in my class entered d Rat race (MBA yaar). I was still contended doing nothing while they appeared for CAT, SNAP, XAT.......

Some of them decided to do MA. I was still happy not being in the centre of attention. (not doing anything, you see ;)

And then, I surprised myself. I don't know what struck me. I decided that I want to be a journalist since writing is what I like. I filled up forms only for some of the top colleges in India for a masters in Mass Communication. I knew it right from the start that I'm not going to make it becuase:
  • the competition in these colleges is extremely tough
  • I'm out of the loop when it comes to GK (a must have to crack them).
  • I've never really been those kurta-wearing, intellectual journo types.
I simply gave them with a dance pe chance maarle kinda feel, which also means I never tried to prepare for them. If I get through, fair enough. If I don't, i'll continue working.

And I seriously think that god visited my blog and read my rants in some of my previous posts like here.
I'm an atheist btw. But this sudden change of events has forced me to believe in the "maaya" of god. I only appeared for entrance test for four top colleges in India. Out of the four, I have qualified for three. The result for the fourth one is awaited.

I was happy when I was selected for St. Xaviers, Mumbai
I was contended when I cleared TCJ.
But when I actually managed to make it through ACJ, I shocked myself. Now, ACJ is one of the top most colleges whose entrance test asks you questions like
  • Who is the prime minister of Zimbabwe?
  • Which recession hit European nation elected a female as their new prime minister overnight? Name the country and its new Prime minister.
  • Why was Gaza Strip in news in February 2008?
mind you, these were the questions I actually faced. If anyone of you reading this blog knows their answers, I salute you becuase I obviously didn't. I left 70% of my paper blank and walked out of the examination hall in 30 minutes flat for a 3 hour exam. :p

And dude, I still got selected!!!.
They say they liked my English section in entrance exam. **pats herself on the back**

I know I should be happy but the catch is I have my interviews lined up.
On 9th June- 11th june, I'm supposed to be in Mumbai for Xaviers interview.
On 12th -14th june, I'm supposed to be in Chennai. Ironically, I need to be in Delhi on the same days as well for Times interview. Now, how will i commute from Delhi--Mumbai-Chennai/Delhi all in one go?

Moreover, I've still not been able to get tickets for Mumbai -Chennai. Summer hols rush, they say. Ab tickets ki wajah se interview miss kar dun?

Do I need to say I'm shit confused, frustrated, aghast?
How will I make it?
Moreover, My boss refuses to give me a leave from the office....damn.

I really wanted to get into these colleges. But now that I'm so close to it, I think Oscar Wilde was wrong.
If we dont get everything that we want, Life is a lot easy.
Simple.

8 comments:

Creation | June 3, 2009 at 12:49 AM

That reminds me Chris Daughtry singing "Be careful what you wish for, 'cause you just might get it all"

All the best for the interviews. May you make it to all of them.

PLP | June 3, 2009 at 3:29 AM

Prianca.....listen, do your BEST to go to the interviews. Please. For me? Pretty please???? I love you. Do it for me! Take sick leave, pretend you died for a few days...

YOU ARE crazy-awesome! I salute you girl. Lol, you got into a top unveristy, pat yourself on the back a gazillion times, on such short notice! We're soul-sisters, I'm telling you.

I was always happy with being above-average too..I also missed out and happily so, on the rat race - and now at this point I am doing exactly what I want. Never, ever give up on what you want. Even if this doesnt happen...I salute you for doing so much on such short notice and actually having thought and decided on what you want to do.

Wish you all the best my friend. In whatever you may decide. And wish you luck on your decisions and how you will go about things!

peter | June 3, 2009 at 6:00 PM

My performance has always oscillated between mean to extreme like a pendulum. I mean both the extremes, I have failed and i have topped too. Yes I am weird I knw :P

u qualified for three good colleges, now wat ? go give interviews ..it's bad, no wait it's insane to have such second thoughts and as for the excuses...if u dun get tickets grow ur wings and fly to Chennai from Mumbai, if ur Boss doesn't approve ur leave application, tell her wife that he was hitting on you ..but do give these interviews.

and wah u believe god commented on ur blog like ONATCC types ..I saw the comments, I knw Abhinav is not God, I am obvsly not and PLP is just above me ..is there anyone else u commented :-ss
coz i see only these names :P
best f luck !

Abhinav | June 3, 2009 at 7:10 PM

# Who is the prime minister of Zimbabwe? Robet Mugabe King hai.. Prime Minister kya karlega?
# Which recession hit European nation elected a female as their new prime minister overnight? Name the country and its new Prime minister.
Norway?or sweden? who knows!
# Why was Gaza Strip in news in February 2008?
Its always famous coz of clashed between Israel and palestine!

All the best for everything!
yea, Life is strange

state of mind? | June 4, 2009 at 3:49 PM

hey confused babe...dnt under rate urself....just be confident n be urself....all d very best!!!

n yeah do wish what u wnat n wrk for it...u'll get it!!! :)

~*Miss A*~ | June 5, 2009 at 9:55 AM

So I'm going to go with PLP!! You should do all of the interviews because honey you are MORE than worthy of these schools! Screw what your boss says, say you're "sick" and go!

I don't want you to look back on this and say I wish I would have....that's one of the worst feelings in the world....trust me, I'm saying it right now about something that I should have done & had the opportunity to do, but just didn't take it!

Keep us posted on how this turns out! I know you'll put your best foot forward in whatever you do, you're destined to do something great!

VagaBond | June 8, 2009 at 5:58 PM

Kya baat hai scholar....big things ur way...happy 4 u...choose ur next step wisely is al i can say...take care!

VagaBond | June 8, 2009 at 5:59 PM

*cmin